I feel aloof. or the lack thereof. i don't find the necessity to nitpick every detail with precision as i usually do. if not today, then tomorrow. i fear there will be something to fear. i fear that if... i find something or someplace that makes me happy, i will never have it. i slept at 3am in my mind, i woke up in the middle of the night thinking "i misplaced myself at a train station"
an elevated sense of drama a desperate hope i can't decide which is worst
morning evening: (this is how i think right now)
my mind loops cherie cherie fairy! what else rhymes? smile smile look and walk ahead! fairy godmother will make you dreams come true i smell like
christmas season
toffee nut starbucks
sweat
i am the sweetest bitterest heaviest, last to leave your lips
i am missed i am swept away yet i am here here here
cherie cherie fairy you look so pretty! maybe maybe maybe baby.
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