Reasoning

I am angry angry angry angry angry

In fact, I am very angry, dissatisfied, outraged at a certain decision that has been made. No I am not the straight-A student but that does not mean I am incapable of making my own choices. Ever heard of A FREE WORLD, woman? Oh so now it's my fault that I have a bad teacher and the whole class (exceptions go to super smart people for reasons I cannot comprehend) ends up almost failing and you blame my grades on me? I cannot be held responsible if I've asked time and time again, the reason why for a certain theory and she doesn't get to the point but instead, avoid the question completely and ends up answering something pointless instead.

Do you really think I will be pleasant with this whole situation and take it from you; take your nonsense judgment you make, not only to me, but to everyone who you think is not wholly above your standards? Just because you think you can make the final decision doesn't make you right.

Obviously I've rushed head-first and gotten angry too quickly but why wouldn't I? Why shouldn't I be completely raving mad, if not demanding the reasons as how you came to made your "decision".

I don't understand how this world really works. You are stating by the motto of "inspir[ing] and helping develop the skills and confidence to enable her to strive towards achieving her personal goals and to contribute to the wider community" YET your decision is exactly the thing that hinders that notion. Hypocritical, condescending, contradictory lies.

I believe I have fair and equal chance just as everyone else, including straight-A students the OPPORTUNITY for what I am trying to pursue so there is absolutely no reason why I should be an exception. Amidst all this confusing anger and outburst, I know the right thing to do, and the most rational, is to settle this with a calm attitude but I just cannot get over the fact that you decided that the matter would end without any further reasoning. Saying "No" doesn't mean I am accepting it, because I will and I can, have the ability to make you understand (albeit in a slightly erratic way) and justify the choices I have made. And therefore I am confident that my share of decisions are to my rightful and completely beneficial disposition.