Weak Heart

I read the other day, in Maybank's Priority Lounge a magazine Psychology Today, that cynics are more prone to suffer heart conditions to people who are optimistic.

... Oh dear.

(hahahah Nicola! But I bet she's SO MUCH more cynical that she doesn't care and continues to be even more cynical towards that statement.)

I feel like making a list.

1, I'm cranky because my skin feels all dry and there are air-cond fixing people in my house. They were late half an hour and they're still here. I want to shower and feel good but now I'm all sticky and can't go bath because there are people in my house. No, you don't take baths when there are weird people in your house.

2, I don't know what to wear because I am anal like that and fuss over petty things like what-to-wear. And plus, I feel even more flamboyantly bitchy because I'm only going out running errands/watching a movie :\ and this is so not me haih.

3, I still have not eaten breakfast and it's almost 11am. But then I don't feel all that hungry I don't know why. And my lips feel sore because they're really dry but my lip balm is in my room and the aforementioned air cond people are fixing my air cond. Speaking of lip balms, I lost my lavender one :( and it was new. And I dropped it (most probably) at the airport when I arrived and when I found out that I lost it, I went mad. Literally. I started mumbling and crying and I went back into the carousels and checked but still no sign. Sigh, it's gone. And then I realised that the situation was so me, because then I kept thinking why do these small insignificant things matter and then I realise it is these small things in life (remember Alex! haha) that do matter :\ woe is me.

4, I am sad because I have to fly back in a week. I woke up this morning and thought shit I don't want to go back in a week that means more macbeth more exams more.. . ..

5, I had a dream last night that someone was reciting a very familiar sonnet that I really really liked but I cannot remember which one! :( Dreams are transient like that.

6, There is this hilarious attempt that someone threw forth in the form of instant messaging the other night. I wondered why I wasn't more rude in a reply then, instead I ignored it and had a good laugh :)

I'm going to find something worthwhile to do now. Meeting jonny & co. later!

p/s: there was something I wanted to talk about for quite some time but I'll save it for later because it is actually quite rantsy and opinionated (as I usually am) and derogatory in some ways. Sigh cynicism isn't a thing you lose in a day or two.