Let me tell you that
there is something obscenely grotesque about these attacks, because afterwards I feel no pain or anger or sadness but a neutral annoyance towards my mental state.
save me because you can (there is always something underneath whiteness)
today I really just spent time idling about classical music and looking at photos of beautiful people which don't really hurt you much but makes you think you're a bit of a lost hope in the world with all the other six billion people
and of course there is nothing dramatizing about my anxiety attacks then, because when you think of it, it doesn't really matter hmmmm thoughtful thoughts really? ambling on and on doesn't this sound like a screwed up monologue like Bombshells oh god that is terrible and here! this is what I really sound like without any pauses, any hesitations unlike my daily speech filled with trepidation of what...... ? of failure and falling out of hope and courage but no, now I can talk with all the criticism I want and who the hell cares?
ring around the posies dilly daisies would you make me happy? I am The Count and my hobby is to count raindrops heehehehehharhar morph! Do you remember that book series called Morph; it was freaky and weird because teenagers morph into animals
tu es l'amour de ma vie
now remember your acronyms, NOW:
Hello hell-oh helpful harness hark the angels sings he will make you twirl
Elephants are cute, baby elephants I wanted to buy this Marks & Spencer toy elephant two years ago for christmas but it was so expensive sad sad
Little lady my you look so pretty would you care for some tea and scones? Do you know I don't like black pudding when I had it in London but I do I do! like Harrod's and the red buses and
Paddington station please take care of this bear from the darkest Peru!
(prize for you if you got the puzzle)
