Tell You About The Tree Angel

... and the enchanted forest boy, who flew across the ocean, because he loved you.

White Walls and Doors

Where your dreams come true

(Disney is one huge marketing gimmick)

I am back. Back to these white walls and doors that lead to nothing. A bathroom, kitchen, and a room? No more hotel 7-11's or making up songs "many many people" getting sick of taking that damn bullet train, (yo it's 260km/h btw) lots of codenames, crappy restaurant service, Hiroshima, why yes Shinjuku Harajuku Shibuya Imadegawa Shinagawa Prince Hotel, bowling alleys, cheap purikura, trains trains trains, shopping, crossings, latelate night card games scary hands noob master ponyo-ness, climbing mountains and cable cars, cold yolks, "I swear it's real...!" "Are you for real?" "No, I'm fake!".

I am still in need of sleep. Some people wake you up for breakfast at 4am in the plane just for breakfast, and it wasn't even all that nice. I have more unpacking to do, those Disneyland gifts, trinklets and blah blah blah.

I have my trials in three days and guess what? No studying for me.

Konichiwa

Quick hello from Tokyo! Third day and plentiful of stuffs but heading to Disneyland tomorrow but it's 11pm right now and I haven't had a showered I feel sticky.

Goodnight!

Quirky

Clockwise from left:

Mabel blowing bubbles, me with Jap umbrella, Marlie, Annie & me, TJ & Min and me!, my famous LAH photo, a cutesy Jap boy from the Japan fest, Starbucks & my Nine West's, iPod, Michie, Me & Jade the foetus, my neighbor Jia Hui, Me & Michie, cupcakes!, NINI and her psychic powers, Marlie loves her coconuts, Me & Wen at Max Brenner's, Hannah the fab and me!

After which I decided I left a lot of people out so I'm sorry I left you out :( Forgive me? I will do another one!

Nemesis

Dear Nemesis,

Although I have completely forgotten what we fought about - oh wait, it was about my 'LAH' display picture wasn't it! And then we went on about weird random spurts of "No I'm not LAH you are!" happy birthday! I still have your present in kl, so remind me to give it to you at the end of the year :D

(see, I actually don't know if he will read this. Afterall, he is my nemesis)

Happy happy happy happy happy birthday! This is for thanking you for wishing me at 12 am sharp for my birthday last year :) And even if we hardly talk at all, and when we do it's mostly random mumbo-jumbo and then one of us needs to go out... I still hope you have a great day yay.

I have yet to see you play your guitar live! YOU ARE THE AWESOMEST GUITARIST I HAVE EVER KNOWN mainly because none of the people I know really play guitar and you play so well! *clap clap* andandand I have the Christmas present you gave last year rightly placed on my bed back home!

... old joke but "Five fives!"

Till the next time we meet on the battlefied (oh god why am I so lame),

your nemesis.

The nemesis caught giving a false friendly smile. Don't be deceived.

Anciently

Kyoto is hot and ancient; dusty with remnants of summer and hints of autumny winds. A lot of walking and a lot of trains, Japan is traditionally modern, efficient and bright. I an in an air-conditioned house, having had multiple cups of drinks: japanese ocha, juice, english tea with pink sugar cubes. Epileptic lights in the train stations make me giddy with childish silliness, converting currency and trying to absorb in some sort of fluidity.

There are bits of words that come in between sessions of walking under the sun with white sunglasses and no pen and paper, same goes for 9 hour plane rides and sleepy trains. I am somewhat resigned to the fact that I am here, in somewhere else, but not surprised or shocked (hoho japan has squatting toilets! and self heat toilet seats - is that even necessary?) but squashed a fragile position, cradled with delight and nervousness.

... and the damn call card I bought from the airport doesn't work. I knew it, Australia you conned me!

Voyage

tonicbound.com

I will be traveling to Tokyo via Sydney tonight (oh god I hate transits and especially domestic terminals) for around two weeks. Going back to one of the hearts of Asia, oh to be back in Asia! Surprise surprise, because break starts today rather than next week for me so I'll be jetsetting off.

Happy mooncake festival in advance!

The last time I was overseas:

Paris!

Everyone have a pleasant weekend! I hope Qantas has good in-flight entertainment but I don't want to have too much expectations, I never liked Qantas.

Remembering How To Breathe

I am breeding anger, cultured from every inch of me: my hair, my fingers, my wrists, neck, navel, chin, elbows… The anger unpeels and reveals itself, slipping out like a gentle foliage. Anger itself is prudent in its way, it's only its actions that causes damage. Today all the screaming, door-slamming, scissors throwing losing my ruler screaming screaming screaming and screaming, all purely bred from anger.

Today I got so angry at myself sorely out of self-loathing reflection and disgust: I am a terrible person. But then other things cling to mind as well, days are numbered and I fear I miss out anything else to pack, to bring; I don’t even know how to operate my luggage as I wonder why the hell does one need extra extension space.

I jerk and I yell and my mother asks me to calm down but I cannot when I can’t find the bloody answer to how long has the damn truck travelled when the speed is half of the original speed. I scream “it’s always me me me me me I am so angry” and it doesn’t work because I am still angry, angry at the pair of bloody scissors, the stupid clothes hanger. Anger is mischievous in its own ways, so I don’t know how to continue.

Stop, halt, freeze.

Remember to breathe.

Help me choose a book: Atonement, Enduring Love or South of The Border, West of The Sun? (First two my Ian McEwan and third by Haruki Murakami) because I don’t know which one to bring.

Packing and The Letter

In between last minute mental packlists and panic and awaited disappointment, there is so little me-time. But I hate it when the time finally comes, like right now, only to find anger and an almost-shamefulness presented to you in a neat little exploding package. It's terrifying facing that letter, sloshed in between other flimsy non-urgent documents because only the letter matters. For that moment, "late afternoon Tuesday" is the anticipated, awaited, agonized day. So rip it off. Sure. It's okay now that the worst of worsts have fallen into place.

Stupid fucking glued envelope and my misspelled name.

"I regret to have to advise you that you have not been elected..." they all sound the same, monotonous, repetitive. Almost apologetic.

... of course.

An Old Friend

A traditional relaks/take it easy post for an old friend who hailed first from London, KL, and now Toronto (trying to fly all over eh?) and also my primary school bestie and remember Yu Li's kung fu antics behind the school slope or something, archaeologist ambitions! secret handshakes, magazines, fights and etc.

Happy birthday hun :) I hope your washing machine gets fixed soon.

Sorry I had to re-use photos from the last post unless you want me to dig up (ha ha reference to archaeology I am so good at puns) old skool photos of us! Which I don't have here :(

I will visit you in Toronto soon! Sigh anyway, to talk about her takes forever to describe (I am not kidding) because there are so many things to remember and recall and all the silly things we did and the falling apart in form 1 and the recent bitchings hahahah! Then she said I dressed in a H&M-style the other time we went out, aw thank you. And you are awesomely good to talk to over msn! "bermesra-mesra" HEHEHEHE. I know you miss home immensely as well! Eventhough everyone keeps wanting to get out of the country.

Ok I was really sad we didn't speak for almost 2 years the time I was still in kl because you are a great friend and fun and yay-ness. I'm glad we do now!

Everyone thinks you have a strong accent already huh? Nevermind now you can be cool 'cos you talk angmoh. Everyone please wish her happy birthday too - although she has her blog on protected, everyone leave a comment here and I'm sure she will be delighted to see it yay :D Shin Ying what is your address lemme send you a postcard when I travel this week! :) And show me your new hair pleaseplease yes? I am terribly sorry I haven't a great birthday present for you, I fail you as a friend haha but I'm sure you don't mind right? Yes. Ok. Good.

I hope you have a goodie good good birthday :)

p/s, despite my cheerful demeanour I am still sick. I hate this. Go away, sickness.

rant #1

1, I hate how we need to be popular to be known
2, The places everyone likes is the place where everyone goes
3, I want to replace 1 with "I hate how we all need to be pretty in a sense to be popular"
4, I wonder what goes thru minds of 13-year-olds: the idea of love and being loved?
5, I can never remember the shitty lyrics of the songs from the 90s because I never caught on to Spice Girls or that Barbie Girl song and Backstreet Boys/N 'Sync/Westlife were these random dudes trying to be sentimental but failing
6, "Selfishness is also written on our hearts, this is our mammalian conflict; what to give to others, and what to keep for yourself" is my current favourite quote
7, I don't think I like clubbing just because everyone else think it's the cool thing to do - dance and get yourself pissed enough
8, I hate your pseudo-American accent when I go back to kl
9, I will never go to another mamak in my life because the food makes me sick
10, I mock at the idea of those who claim "oh my god Ikea you know So cool! persisting if I had Ikea furniture, I'd be part of some cool cult or whatnot.
11, I have never shopped or bought anything from F21 and I don't like grocery shopping
12, People fail quite miserably at surprising me (when dad tried to surprise me when he bought my camera but didn't tell me)
13, I think colour contact lenses are just flabby reasons for boosting self-confidence.
14, I have a dislike and fear towards endearments because I think it's stupid in some ways
15, Marlie doesn't like hugs; I don't think I'd like kisses that much either
16, I will never be important enough in anyone's life but that's just my pessimistic views
17, Thinking about the future has a great impact on me - a bad one
18, I wanted to bring my Samsonite luggage with me for my trip but it's too small so now I have to get a new luggage bag
19, Well, screw you for your single-mindedness and idiotic remarks, screw you. I hope you live your entire life being critisized by the people who you were always complaining about
20, After 19 statements, everything begins to look pretty stupid. Time for a painkiller. Shit for being sick.

We Feel Fine

We Feel Fine